Octopus's Garden

Lately I feel like I'm living life for Sundays. I love the SHIT out of Trivia Night! Last weekend I found myself actually counting down the hours until Trivia. It sucks A LOT that I have to work on Mondays because I feel so pumped up after trivia that I don't want to sleep, then have to go to work the next day. And the lack of sleep REALLY catches up with you. I think I might have actually fallen asleep at the till a few Mondays back.

Lets see... what else is new with me?

I...

• ...Won $50 dollars! I have never won on a Cashword ever! If I had gotten a "b" I would have $100 and if I had gotten an "l" I would have $1000 ... but I'm not complaining.
  
• ...Worked my ass off at work. I didn't get the raise I thought would come with the work but it felt good working and feeling like I was being appreciated for it. I did get a bottle of Kahlúa and a curly bamboo as a thank you gift. So that's pretty awesome.
  
• ...Saw Birds are Dinosaurs (well... some of it) and it was awesome. I really wish I had their CD! Also wish I could play the mandolin!!
• ...Stayed home sick today. I woke up not feeling so hot. I went upstairs and my nose started to bleed (which used to happen to me all the time until I got my nose cauterized). So I figured I'll just get it to stop and go on with my day. Instead I got very very dizzy and almost fell into my bathtub. So my Aunt put me back to bed and left me at home. I just hope I feel better for tomorrow!!
  

Also did you know that my favorite drink, "Harvey Wallbanger" does NOT call for Cinnamon? I have looked all over and I haven't seen a recipe call for it even once. Also I read that it's "joined the 'endangered species list' " and that the only "appropriate" places to order them are "Beaches, pools and tiki lounges".... To which I say... Fuck you! I love Harvey Wallbangers and will order them where ever I want to! And I will always ask that they have some cinnamon on top too.

What's the New Mary Jane

A Nice Evening in 20 Points

1. Being told you are sweet
2. Being told you win a 'beautiful contest' by one of the prettiest people you know
3. Singing Cocaine Blues from beginning to end at the top if your lungs in a pub that you love
4. Catching up with someone you never really knew
5. Baby Guinness
6. Grown up Guinness
7. "That was actually a cool trick with the beer though"
8. Learning from the best
9. Being a thumb war champion
10. Alouette, gentille alouette, Alouette, je te plumerai
11. Winning Red Mittens
12. Being told you are adorable and that someone wants to carry you in their pocket... or in some sort of bag like Paris Hilton carries Tinkerbell
13. Being mistaken for a metal smith
14. Innocent and uncomplicated hand holding
15. Being cuddled and cuddling back
16. She's freaky *wink wink*
17. Realizing and getting back on track
18. Hugs that feel like puzzle pieces being turned right
19. Being Mary Jane
20. Going for it...

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Quite Possibly the Oddest and Most Reassuring Moment of My Year Thus Far
Scene- Aimee is at work (she is slightly drunk from the lovely night before). The woman who is affectionately referred to as "Crazy" is sitting enjoying her free coffee (as well as her stolen creamer that Aimee saw her take but couldn't be bothered to do anything about ... she is feeling quite lovely after all). Crazy spills said free coffee and asks Aimee for assistance. Aimee mops up and tries to reassure Crazy that all is well.
Crazy - I apologize!
Aimee - Oh it's okay. Accidents happen.
(Aimee begins to walk away)
Crazy - No. Miracles happen.

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So you're scared and you're thinking

That maybe we ain't that young anymore

Show a little faith, there's magic in the night

You ain't a beauty, but hey you're alright

Oh and that's alright with me

The Fool on the Hill

I'm ok with everything I am about to say.

• I have no idea how to start this list
• While I am ok with everything I'm going to say I also worry about being judged a bit (even though I know it's silly... because deep down I really don't give a fuck what anyone thinks) (This is confusing sort of... I'm complex like that.)
• I am one of those silly girls sometimes and I can't help it
• I enjoy "lame" music sometimes (I'm listening to my downloaded copy of Katy Perry right now! I am able to relate to it oddly enough (in my crazy bend the world to my own purposes way)). "How do I know the right way to love you? Keep holding on hoping there's a real boy inside"
• I have to talk myself into thinking I look pretty more then I am comfortable with
• I am not always fair when making decisions about things
• I'm hopeful he will come around even though all the signs point to giving up (If being in love is totally punk rock then I am the punkiest punk that ever punked! If only he knew....)
• I'm terrified of the future (Because I feel like I don't have one yet)
• Sometimes I imagine myself abandoning everything I have here and starting fresh with no looking back (I worry that if I did no one would look for me)
• I wanted everything he was offering (a lot... more then I realized) ... but under my conditions
• I wish on stars but for very general things (I guess I hope the star knows what I mean or what I need... I feel like the universe knows whats best for me a lot of the time. Because I have no fucking clue!)
• I feel guilty for not caring that I have no father (But really.... I couldn't care less)
• There are at least three things I can think of that I have never told anyone and never will (But if feels good to talk about them like this)
• I can replay almost every touch and thought from that kiss in my head... and do often. Because it was awesome and fun and crazy and more then anything else it was right
• I have no idea where this burst of honest share came from. It felt good though.

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What will it take to make or break this hint of love?

We need time, only time

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?

If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?

So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?

All the time, all the time